the one where I rant about my job

<insert preferred moniker of your deity of choice here> DAMN IT!!!!!!!

Some days I really hate my life. today is one of those days.

you see, for the last little while, the wife and I have been trying to get things lined up to go to kelowna for a week or so for vacation.

every time we get close to booking, a wrench gets thrown in to the works

i can’t complain about the 4 days I took off to go to YK for the funeral… though it did shorten the amount of time I have available for holidays.

I can however complain about the fact that I am now scheduled to be on call for the weekend that we had planned to be leaving for holidays.

there is one person I may be able to switch with…. but it is a long shot.

GRRRRRRRARRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHH

Conflict of dis-interest

alright… before I really start, let me say that I have had some wine and may not be my usual witty (or coherent) self.

Today is my least favorite day of the year

luckily it is almost over.

the reason it is my least favorite day of the year is because this is the birthday of my biological father.

I always stop and think today…. should I reach out and wish a happy birthday? should I be the bigger man?

but then I realise…. int he last 365 days, I have not heard anything about him, or from him, and I am ok with that.

besides… why should I be the bigger man in this… he is my friggin father after all.

I am about to say something here that I am sure will be used against me at some point by my darling sister

It pains me that I don’t have contact with my father.

I mean, really it shouldn’t and after she praised me for being so “strong” in this, I should take that and run.

but I always thought I was better than him.

but really… I am avoiding him as much as he avoids me… so really… we are the same in that

I really hate this day.

hopefully tomorrow is better.